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Feeling of sensory overload

Feelings of Sensory overload
So I wrote this post while I was in one of my university lectures and experiencing sensory overload. 
I'm sitting in my lecture as I write this, experiencing sensory overload. Something that I have alot and really affects my anxiety and my ability to perform in class.
The only way I can think to describe it to those who don't suffer from this is image that it was possible for you to hear every sound that is happening in the room around you, you feel the vibrations from those noises travelling through your body and there is no way for you to stop them.
Now you may think how this affects my anxiety, but to that I ask how doesn't it?
The main focus of my anxiety is that I struggle to process information that I'm being told, I'm trying to listen to everything I need to all at once and then I start to panic that I'm going to miss out on something important and that I'm going to fail and my life is going to come to an end.
Now in this lectu…

3 reasons that I love musicals so very, very much

3 reasons that I love musicals so very, very much 
As you may have guessed from a number of music puns I have made in the past, I really love my music but my favourite type of music is that that comes from the stage. 
That's right, I'm talking about MUSICALS (insert jazz hands here).
In this post, I'm going to break down the 3 reasons why I love musicals so very, very much, what some of my favourite musicals are and how they have surprisingly helped me in my quest to improve my mental health.
So, let's say "hello" to all the reasons I love musicals (but my name certainly isn't elder price). 
1. My grandma.
Very early on in my life (around the age of 4/5) my grandma was always showing me programs from the musicals she was performing in her early 20's (I think it was around the early 1960's) and about how much she loved it. Unfortunately she was forced to stop once she married my Grandad and became pregnant with my aunt and even though she says she never …

So I've been put on bed rest by my doctor...

So I've been put on bed rest by my doctor...And you may be wondering why.
Well, the short version of this story is that I currently have something called costochondritis which means that the cartilage connecting my ribs to my breastbone is inflamed and very painful.




The longer version of the story starts back on Thursday 5th October where at 11am while at university I started to get some very back chest pains. Now, these chest pains didn't get better (in fact they were getting worse) throughout the day so in the evening we (my parents and I) made the decision to go up to A&E because you know, better to be safe than sorry.
We got to the hospital and I only had to wait around 10 minutes before being seen and hooked up to an ECG to make sure it wasn't my heart. I'm very happy to say that it wasn't anything to do with my heart so was then sent to the urgent care centre, a part of the hospital where there are GP's available through the night. The only downside to t…

University life...how is it going so far?

University life...how is it going so far?




I'm not sure if I mentioned this in my last post but I GOT INTO UNIVERSITY (can you tell I was a bit excited?) and so far I have been loving it.
I'm studying my BSc in Food Development and Innovation and even though I am only just about to enter my 3rd week I have to say that I have ended up on the perfect course for not only my future career but also for my mental health at this moment in time.
You see, I love food. And not just eating food, but how the food we eat affects us, how society can affect our eating habits and how our actual eating habits compared to what they should be. These are some of the things that I happen to be learning in this first semester, but let me break down my 3 modules for this first semester. 
Diet and nutrition: this is the class where I learn what the recommended eating habits of the nation should be. For example, did you know that the recommended amount of fruit and veg a day has gone up from 5-a-day to 10/…

So yeah, where exactly have you been Abbie?

So yeah, where exactly have you been Abbie?An explanation explaining my absence 
So yeah, I've been gone for a while, much longer than I was planning to be gone but gone none the less.
So why was I away for so long? Where was I? What was happening? Well the answer to these questions are the same thing:
A sever episode in my depression and anxiety disorder.
You see, it's been a stressful time in my life recently what with getting my exam results, finding out if I got into university or not, starting to feel less and less confident in my own life decisions and this lead to me entering my "episode" as we'll call it.
I was stuck in a vicious cycle. My anxiety was convincing my brain that I had failed my exams, and that made my depression kick in and say "well if you have failed, what's the point of getting up and doing anything? The past 3 years at college have been a waste of your life so you might as well rest the waste of it" so for days at a time I …

The weekly catch up #5 (of sorts)

The weekly catch up #5 (of sorts)A week in my life condensed down into one post...but this weeks is a little different.
So first of all I want to say sorry for not only the lack of posts this week but also for the fact that this weekly catch up is a day late. You see, other than going shopping with my mum on the Wednesday of last week (which you can see my vlog of in my YouTube channel, link in my about me page) I really haven't done much this week and that has caused me to enter one of my slightly depressive episodes.
I have honestly been waking up in the mornings, and sometimes the afternoons, thinking to myself "what is the point to me waking up?", "should I just go back to sleep?" And "why am I feeling like this?".
And the honest answer to the last question is that I just don't know. 
You never really know when depression is go into strike, and it can sometimes be overnight and for no apparent reason. I would wake up to just go back to sleep soon …

The weekly catch up #4

The weekly catch up #4A week in my life condensed down into one post17th July-23rd JulyBefore I start this weekly catch up, I just wanted to say that we've made it to one whole month of doing these weekly catch ups which to me is a big deal. Often I lose motivation very easily due to my depression but I glad that this is the one thing I managed to stick with, so YAY!!!
Monday- now this Monday, I really needed a day to look after myself and my skin as I had been breaking out a lot due to stresses at home and having good skin always helps me mentally (you can read why here in a past post) so I spent my day giving my face a good wash, did a face mask and some others things. But before I was given the chance to start my mini spa day, something else that I had to deal with popped up. Isn't that always the way? 
But this was good news, it was the news of my DSA equipment and the fact that I was able to get it delivered THAT WEEK!! I wasn't expecting to get it so soon but hey, when…