My my, I really need to stop doing this, don't I?

My my, I really need to stop doing this, don't I?Why have I been away for a long time...Again...
I'm just a girl, sitting in front of her laptop screen, asking you to forgive her for not updating her blog for a long while. 
But on a serious note I really am sorry for not writing on here for a long time, but between university, poor mental health, poor physical health and life in general, I'm surprised I even managed to find time to sit and eat (kind of ironic in some ways seeing as I study food at university).
But anyway, I'm back now, I'm finding ways to manage my time and in general myself better so I can talk more and write more for all of you lovely people out there. 
I won't go into details as to what has been happening since I've been gone, I'd rather look forward than backwards (but if you have any burning questions then feel free to and I'll answer them the best I can) so I suppose this was just a quick update to tell you that I'm back now a…

When you feel like you're wearing a mask...

When you feel like you're wearing a mask...

First things first: depression sucks. Like really, really sucks.
It can strike at any moment, it doesn't care what you need to do or what your social plans are. It's selfish and only cares about making its presence known. 
The trouble is that while some employers/education centres/friends/family are starting to become more understanding when it comes to mental health problems, the majority of them still aren't and you somehow find yourself forcing yourself going through your everyday life as if nothing is wrong when on the inside you have no emotion whatsoever. 
And that's when you have to choose which mask you're going to wear that day. 
Are you going to wear your sad mask, you know, the one that people think depression really is? This might make your depression seem more believable to those around you so they finally believe that there is something rather than it just being a case of needing to cheer up and look on the b…

My Liebster award nomination/acceptance post!!!

My Liebster award nomination/acceptance post!!!

So yeah, I've only gone and got nominated for the Liebster award by the wonderful my naija life who writes about her life in Nigeria. 
For those wondering what the Liebster award is it is an award that was created to recognize and discover new bloggers and to welcome them to the world of blogging. The award only exists online and is provided by bloggers, for bloggers. In other words, it's all about bloggers supporting and building each other up. 
There are however a few rules that have to be followed by those who are nominated:
If you've been nominated and have decided to accept it, write a Blog post about this award including a thank you to the blog that nominated you in the first place and also provide a link to them.
Display the award on your blog either in the post or by including it as a widget/gadget on your blog
Answer the questions about yourself, which the person who nominated you will ask you. (You can use the same questi…


(Insert shameless plug for my knitting business here) ( you can even have a look at the logo here)

Hi everyone, 
this is just a quick post to show off (and shamelessly plug) the fact that my knitting business has currently got a couple of handmade Christmas decorations, each one made by yours truly.

First up, we have a lovely silvery-grey snowflake, 4 inches by 4 inches. It's hand crocheted and also has a loop on the top to make it easy to hook onto maybe a Christmas tree or even to use in place of a gift tag on presents. 

The second item is a dark green (with specks of brown) hand crocheted Christmas tree, 4 inches tall and 3 inches wide. Again it has a loop at the top so could also be used for decorations or in place of a gift tag. 

Both of these items are £2 each with free postage in the UK but an extra £2 for postage anywhere outside of the UK.
If you are interested in getting some of these items then just email my knitti…

Why am I doing (and finishing) my Christmas shopping in early November?

Why am I doing (and finishing) my Christmas shopping in early November?

Now some of you are probably already screaming at the title of this post and are probably considering doing one of two things: 1) clicking away because you don't think you can even begin to understand why someone would even want to be thinking about finishing their Christmas shopping in early November or 2) reading this whole post because you want to understand why on earth someone would be thinking a bit finishing their Christmas shopping in early November.
Well if you fall into the number 2 group then settle down and enter my (extremely early) winter wonderland of "Christmas in early November"
(insert Christmas music and all that jazz here)
Number 1: crowds
Now as someone with an anxiety disorder, I'm not good at dealing with large crowds at the best of times, but when it gets to the Christmas season shopping centres seem to turn into a scene from any dead rising game. It's just that rather than…

Feeling of sensory overload

Feelings of Sensory overload
So I wrote this post while I was in one of my university lectures and experiencing sensory overload. 
I'm sitting in my lecture as I write this, experiencing sensory overload. Something that I have alot and really affects my anxiety and my ability to perform in class.
The only way I can think to describe it to those who don't suffer from this is image that it was possible for you to hear every sound that is happening in the room around you, you feel the vibrations from those noises travelling through your body and there is no way for you to stop them.
Now you may think how this affects my anxiety, but to that I ask how doesn't it?
The main focus of my anxiety is that I struggle to process information that I'm being told, I'm trying to listen to everything I need to all at once and then I start to panic that I'm going to miss out on something important and that I'm going to fail and my life is going to come to an end.
Now in this lectu…

3 reasons that I love musicals so very, very much

3 reasons that I love musicals so very, very much 
As you may have guessed from a number of music puns I have made in the past, I really love my music but my favourite type of music is that that comes from the stage. 
That's right, I'm talking about MUSICALS (insert jazz hands here).
In this post, I'm going to break down the 3 reasons why I love musicals so very, very much, what some of my favourite musicals are and how they have surprisingly helped me in my quest to improve my mental health.
So, let's say "hello" to all the reasons I love musicals (but my name certainly isn't elder price). 
1. My grandma.
Very early on in my life (around the age of 4/5) my grandma was always showing me programs from the musicals she was performing in her early 20's (I think it was around the early 1960's) and about how much she loved it. Unfortunately she was forced to stop once she married my Grandad and became pregnant with my aunt and even though she says she never …